You realize that your enemy is your self and you are powerless to control it. You realize your insecurities attack you again and no one can help you either. Even the closest and most trusted are turning their backs against you; you let go, let lose, lift it up and think that you cannot please all; the worse, you can never please anyone. Continue with what you do and be who you are for at the end of the day, the affected are those who lose. Smile and stay positive, you are a winner.